Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Finding serenity

I am struggling at the moment to find time for myself to do the things I want to do. I seem to be spending all my time looking after kids, my own and for my job, cleaning and cooking. I am so tired all the time as Callum hasn't slept through the night for about 6 months now and it's really taking it's toll. If anyone has any suggestions please let me know. It started off with him having nightmares but now I think he is sleeping so lightly that any noise is waking him; birds, cars, the dog taking a drink.

To this end I have a really short temper at the moment and am feeling very harrassed. The kids are getting shouted at and I am feeling thoroughly unloved, hence the need to find serenity. I was hoping to just pop to a local shop and buy a bag of it but apparently that's not an option. Instead I took a walk in the beautiful suburb where we live and tried to take in the scenery. The picture is Rangitoto Island which we can see from the beach at the bottom of our road, it's beautiful and I'm so glad we made the choice to come here.

It helped a little but I'm just still so tired. Ideas?

1 comment:

Jen said...

Hi Emma, Jen here. Just read your post about feeling tired, stressed etc, and it took me back to when my daughter was a bad sleeper. I breast fed her for the first year, every two to four hours day and night. I was starting to look like a ghost! I wish I had some easy solutions for you, in my day it was 'grin and bear it'. I was told to sleep when she slept, but then who does the housework etc., A few years ago when I was going through sleepless nights, I tried meditation and I must say that did help. Exercise, fresh air, (I see you are doing that). Day care once or twice a week, not the ones where you stay and entertain the kiddies, looks like you already do enough of that. No, the ones where you drop them off and go home and have a rest! Not much help I'm afraid, but I'm thinking of you and sending peaceful thoughts.